don't

I don't wanna fall to pieces ,
i juz wanna sit & stare at u .
I dun wanna talk about it ,
coz im in love with u .

21 years old promises!

my beloved baby say!go back there study,dun come back again.
then i answer no and ask this is your true word?
she are keep silent,and to bow.
she are fall dowm.
that times.i crying from her.
i say i will never leave,just wait.
i will come back when i finish my engineer course.
yes.i love her.
this times i go back also becuase she say,she need to love already.
then i need to go back.because i really love her.
i fall in love for her on a primary school 4 grade.
count!!already have 9 years above.
i will not forget what happen on 21 years old promises i give you.
i know my beloved baby are broken heart.
and i really fell sad.
baby yen just wait me when i finish my engineer course.
i will not couple with another.
because i just need your loved.
you can couple with anyone.
but i also will wait you when you break up.
this is my promises also.
i love you,and my mom say her love you also.yeh!!

i'm sorry

my beloved babe,i'm really feel sorry.
please forgive my stupid actions.
must go back singapore aldy.
please date me ok~

im come back celebrate new years

just come back from singapore.come to find me if you want.

marry christmas

happy marry christmas to you all.
i come back rawang tomorrow.
and chirldish i get it.
wait mine gift to you.

i miss my freedom ALOT ALOT.

its been a long two weeks in pulau tekong.my perspective of army has changed.hmm. there were many firsts in the 2 weeks.the first time i shaved my moustache.the first time i fired a weapon.the first time i stayed away from home for 2 weeks.the first time i was put on IV drip.the first time i took a tonner.my first signature.basically there were many new things ive experienced.and definitely, ive made many new buddies, especially my section mates.they are all very nice, and i really like my section alot. :Dbut still, im not used to the army life, YET.will still try hard to aim for OCS though.hmm, and i really miss civilian life ALOT.miss my family,miss my friends,miss my home, room and bed,miss tv,miss camera phone,miss psp.miss him, her, you and them.sigh.and i really dread booking in tmr.but nevertheless, i will still try my best to adapt to the new lifestyle,which i believe will turn me,
from a boy,
to a MAN :)
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ALL~!GONG XI FA CAI!

hear my chirldish say she wan go find work with her friend tomorrow.
my suggestion is you can work but work before you must have some handicraft.
if have some handicaft will be your future is the best.
this just is my suggestion.i know you will not hear deh,but i also must say with you.
dun think this be liable to easy.for the sake of good.okie?
chirldish if you select work then also must hardworking r.dun lazy likeness before leh.
and dun regret you select deh.hope you do all best in your life.

my exams comings soon!
gambateh on all.pass pass pass.

HOLIDAYS~

exams ended on wed (19/11/09) i think all should be ok la..think i din fail anything..anyway.on wed aft exam..stayed in skool to finish our last assignment..then went home..napped awhile..then went out wif jing han..on sat..went to teach my topper class..today was ok..boat still had a little bit of problems..but nvm..anyway i tore off the shelter cos its very irritating..the boat looks great now..from a garbage looking boat..to a convertible..LOL..aft class..drove joshua n marcus to north point..then went home for dinner..sun..coached BSC..9.30-5.30..class was all..5 of then was the same age as me..n 1 was a few years older..they learnt fast..in the afternoon they were sailing a proper course liao..but when duin recovery..one of them forgot bout what they learnt earlier..n broke a new rudder in half..most likely they will have to pay foe the damages..but jus hoping that no payment is needed-.- suposed to end at 5.30..but i wanted to teach them rules also..so end up fin class at 6.30..they cleared up all their doubts also..great bunch of students..but i dun think i will b taking them for their next lesson..cos i have my other classes..aft class ended..took transport wif joshua to sunplaza for dinner..chit chat awhile..then went home..mon..went to BBDC wif hannisah n nicki to register for hannisah's driving..then aft tt..went to meet jing han n kim n his gf..then in the end..jing han not going..so we went ot meet kin n his gf..when we reached bugis..they haven reach..so we went to sim lim 1st..hannisah n i wanted to go look at camera stuff..so we went to orient photo to try out lenses..try oni..but not buying there..cos i dun trust that shop..lol..then aft tt..went to do her psp..then we went to iluma to find kim n his gf..nicki went home shortly after that..then we went for dinner..then went to bugis street to get my shorts..n i got it=)aft tt..hannisah n i went over to kims place to teach him chart work n tides for his test tml..but b4 that..he sent evelyn home 1st..so me n hannisah sat at the bus stop tryin to pan cars that were driving pass..then we proceeded to his house..he wanted to bathe 1st..so me n hannisah looked through his fb..n saw this video.."kumar drag queen part 1,2,3" omg its so funny..haha..then aft tt..taught him till bout 2?then he sent us home..today..woke up wif afew smses from a few ppl..one of them was from jing han..ask if i wanted to go out..so ok lo..i got nth on anyway..so went wif her to clarke quay to return stuff..then walk walk abit..then went to ljs to sit n drink..then walkwalk to china town..n walked there..aft tt..kim called..asked where i was..so i said i was at china town wif jing han..he asked if wan to go out..so ok lo..nth to do anyway..then after a LONG while..settled for dinner n movie at DG..so we went to look for a bus stop..n thx to miss jing han..the bus ride was like 1 hour plus..LOOP the whole s'pore lo-.- then met kim..ate at ajisan..or wadeva u spell it..he treat cos he jus got his pay..then aft tt went to find his gf..then we went to buy movie tix..then his gf haven eat..so he pei her eat..me n jing han went to walkwalk at the cathay..then we went to watch the proposal..nice show..very funny..worth the money=)anyway..aft the show..got another show..its called "kim bullying evelyn" nice show also..live broadcast summore..haha..aft tt..went to take bus..then got on the last bus home..

we the sunnies celebrities.

rain, begone!

cause here i come, Sentosa!

pray for a sunny sunday for me, prettayeprettaye please? (:

WARNING: PHOTO SPAM.

Today was a waste of time in town. Walked endlessly in Bugis because of the rain, eventually getting lost while looking for SMU, decided to take a bus that DO NOT even pass by the bus stop. Spend almost half an hour waiting and "la la la-ing" with my cousin before we checked and realised how dumb we were. Walked to bugis shopping mall to take a cab, waited another 15mins, board the cab, meter had not even start to count and we were outside SMU already. Freaking 2 stops ahead. -,-! After doing what she had to do, waited at the bus stop for bus back to bugis which was just 3 stops away, first bus came and passed because we did not flag. Second bus came we flagged like crazy and turned to face each other for 5seconds and the bus just ZOOMED pass us without stopping again. The bus drivers are really DONKEYS. ARGH! So frustrated at that point I just wanted to SCREAM. Dragged my cousin and we walked back to bugis. What a day. Arse luck.

Fun

cant get enough of it. (:

:D

you know kailong touched me greatly today.like usually, my friends would just say take care and all the best and stuff.but kailong is different, very different!
He gave me many advices,and told me what to do, and what not to.he kept on talking and made it clear what he was saying was important.he really wanted me to get those stuff inside my head.and he cant stop telling me to be careful!its very difficult to explain what he did that made me so touched la,but i just feel like saying it.he deserves this passage here. :)ahhhhh tan kai long, you made my day ah!
im like very touched.thanks alot man!
果然 is a 好朋友, a 好 senior!

lol

sentosa trip with part of 07S30 was great fun!first time go out with sijin & kailin i think. :Dervin got sunburned soon after.

mao was super duper late for mahjong session,and hence..a total classic act! xD

is itself.

she told me am this painful she would endure.=i can know your mood.
three persons has had never always a person on an equal footing and must die a heroic death.
you were how the much meat are lovable.but now thin become this.
the world is really very brutal.
good person s should can not get the happiness?
good person why always get unfair treat?
it isn't good enought to be really not that you do and get unfair of shape,so don't need again worry.

is really her.

she sees my first word of sentence is 源我的心真的受傷了and she no matter her image puts the voice big weep.she really really broken heart.
originally we are still in the cold war the cold war.because her remark with her not facial expression enduring me excused her in front to mine impolite.to lend her my shoulder.
say her: thank.thought i how cold blood,my heart again how painful and i can all want need shoulder lend to others to depending on when weeping.finish saying.she puts the voice again big weep.and she asking我真的很笨嗎perhaps isn't.
and i say with her:as long as treasure and avoid wasting properly.though how fail again,you already treasured and avoid wasting.
it is grieved to don't need.treasure and avoid wasting you now had.this is important.

perks of being a teacher.

unforgettable experience with unforgettable people; stella, sarah soo, qiuyu, sharon, feng er, unmac, jon, renyang & weeyong [

being a teacher kinda makes you an instant mini-celebrity.when you walk along the corridor, or sit in the canteen, kids come up to you & go, "MISS NG!!! HELLO!!"(some of whom i do not recall teaching at all :P haha come on there are so many kids okay.)

sometimes when i walk pass classrooms (with teachers inside) the kids spot me & shout "hi miss ng!!!" to the chagrin of their teacher.it's super cute.

so today, i walked into a lift (2 students & a teacher were already inside), & one of the students excitedly shouted, "HELLO MISS NG!" & i smiled and said hello back.

and the teacher scolded the student & said, " HELLO WHAT HELLO?!

MISS NG YOUR BEST FRIEND ARH?? IT'S GOOD AFTERNOON! NOT HELLO!"and i was trying so hard not to laugh coz i found it so ticklish. :D

anyway, the taiwan photos are up on facebook. (did not post all though. there were 500plus?)

cant blog in detail coz:

(1) i've no time

(2) i dont remember the names of half the places i've been to because ALL THE NAMES ARE IN CHINESE.

(3) i dont remember the order in which the places were visited either. haha

despite the obvious language barrier, i had truckloads of fun during the trip. the scenery was awesome. the food was awesome. & the company was awesomely awesome

training camp

We are all drench that day as it was raining heavily that day.
Introduction: We meet one another all in MJR as prefect when we are all junior prefects only.With a special affinity, we get to go camps, workshop, meeting and run school events together as a group(In group photo). Our bonds just get so close that we can do almost everything together and talk of all subjects.
We grow up unknowingly, where we proceed to lead and educated others.
Seng Yong: OIC of MJR NPCC, MJR Head Prefect(Wow)
Jian Cong: Senior Prefect(department Head), Captain of MJR badminton team
Yu Ren: Senior Prefect, Vice-Chairperson of Mjr Chinese Orchestra
Jordan: Senior Prefect (Dept head), Baraton Sectional Leader of MJR Choir.
Myself: Senior Prefect, Chairperson of MJR Buddhist interact club.
--END--

happy birthday

happy birthday to you eli~

anymore

all i wanted was to hear those soft words from yoo. i called yoo when i was at my weakest, when i needed yoo the most. but all yoo did was hit me with hard reality and expect me to swallow it. im a boy, i need time, i need your comfort under those bigg wings of yours. yoo dont love me like yoo used do, cause yoo never treated me like before. yoo get agitated so easily and start raising your voice at me. i mean, why dont yoo try to put yourself in my shoes? and, i know im not as important as your family, maybe not as important as your friends or whatever. i thought i knew i had a firm place in your heart, but now i dont anymore. yoo dont even feel like spending your first few moments of 2009 with me. just those few moments. yoo know how envious i feel when i see couples spending such moments tgt? i didnt even get christmas with yoo and i dont even stand a slightest chance of having the first 10 minutes of your 2009. i feel that your love isnt there anymore. yoo might say it isnt true, but i cann feel it. though we're so so so happy when we go out and stuff, but emotionally, i cant see where we even click. im really not sure. sometimes, i scared myself so much that i wonder if all these harsh treatment is part of your perfect little plan of ending us before the enlistment. yoo may claim that idea is way over, but somehow its still lingering in me. then i wonder to myself, why am i sabotaging our relationship like that? then i realise, i haven wholly trusted in yoo again. all those lying and stuff, had hit me so hard. i wonder when will yoo ever love me so much, that im the only one yoo wanna spend those special moments with, the only pair of eyes yoo wanna look deep into, the only hand yoo wanna hold, the only one yoo wanna be on the phone with for 3 hours not saying a word. seems like for now, im the last person yoo even wanna talk to. i dont know, dont know what to do to make yoo love me as much as i love yoo. yes, i am this stupid. stupid to still hold on like that when yoo're just pushing me so far away. oh wells, it just sucks to be MARS.

singing carols

Saw the choir singing carols in the white sand mall, I miss my choir days. I miss singing those classic songs, the feel of projection, the ring of the voice in my head, the deep diaphram breathing. All these skills I've acquired. Guess I'm now a punctured tire, easily out of breath and I sound like a toad. HAHA.

thing.

do you know how bad it hurts,everything that happened,everything that i gave.is gone,nothings left,but memories.and i hurts because what all happened,they should have been more then just that.
do you know how bad it hurt looking at you and seeing nothing but lies,pain,and wasted tears?and especially when i see hoe fast you moved o n,and with my enemy.do you know how bad it hurts losing your besr friendover something you thought was your everything?
who am i supposed to tell things to now?
who am i supposed tocry to now?
who's supposed to pick up my picccs when they shatter on the ground?
IT HURTS,SOO BAD!
i have no regrets,but if i could start over i wish i wouldn't have say yes.the only bad things is ...that im so deeply in love with you,still,anjd i think i will always be:'-(

Heartcrash

i hate how much I still misses us. After what happened today, everything came back like a painful ride to somewhere between heaven and hell. I have always thought all I needed really, was just one more. But I was wrong. I was not aware of the strong impact you have on me still and how easily you bring me back to miserable. God must been listening when I was confidently telling di that bruises and scars may fade all they want but the pain will always remain. And thats how I want it to be, cause somehow, painful as it is, it keeps it alive and god knows, sometimes I need pain to make me feel real. I was asking for it, then.

It sucks everytime when it comes to you, its something near suicidal.

With You

if its all lies, then why does it feels so real?
I dont think you are being fair to me or even to yourself. I dont like to hear you telling me things about myself which is far from the truth, that actually will hurt me. I have my ways of staying grounded to who I am. So dont tell me Im different, dont tell me that I have my nose stick up all the way into the sky when you, you are so blinded by your own ego and right out plain stupidity.
i cant believe you, someone who brings back my faith is also the same person who makes me feel so ugly inside.
i cant freaking believe you!
When you decide to grow up and gather your somehow misplaced guts and start acting like a man, then come back and tell me who’s fault is it. I dare you.

meetoto season 2

INTROduction

What is Meetoto?
Meetoto is a web-based gaming world which introduces a novel and exciting way to enjoy the fun of casual online gaming with the benefits of serious social networking. Targeted mostly at teenager and young adults, male gamers called Meetoos and female gamers called Meetees easily interact in a virtual world.
There are many things to do in the cities of Meetoto - Immerse yourself in this virtual world of your own! Every citizen in the world of Meetoto can play interior designer to their own apartment. Use costumes and other personalization options and let your Meetoo and Meetee become extension of your virtual personality.
Just like in the real world, shop and buy clothes, or visit the salon to change hair style. Earn meecoins, the currency of Meetoto, by getting a job playing casual games, becoming a performance star, or by just hanging out with your friends in game. Making an in game living has never been more enjoyable!
All you need is a web browser! The core of Meetoto is its world-class video and audio streaming technology delivered via Flash straight to your browser. Using advanced features, Meetoo and Meetee can showcase their talent and become a star in live virtual concerts using only a webcam and microphone!
In short, Meetoto is a web-based, anime-remixed, combination of Second Life and YouTube Live; where you can broadcast your world and your imagination. Best of all, there is no download client needed- any internet browser with Flash installed will allow you to play Meetoto anytime, anywhere!
Look out for unique Malaysia and Singapore maps, the first in this region, created by our very own in-house GoPlayPlay Meetoto team! There is so much to look forward to in this world of entertainment and enjoyment- So come in to Meetoto, and bring out the Star in You!

My companions.

Alright, these are my very lame classmates. Its good to have occasional outings, get to know each other before we graduate. They are very nice and funny people. Totally cool to hang out with.
Well, thats all for now. I broke my mirror at 2.30am just now. What an idiot. 7 years of bad luck! =( ok i'm not superstitious. My second time breaking a mirror anyway. I still can't find my FREAKING nail polish. DAMN IT! WHERE ISIT!! ARGH!

steamboat

saturday steamboat was okay.. supposed to meet at 7pm plus.. but find parking lots.. pass through ERP, $2 gone.. go bugis junction car park then realize it's expensive so went out, $2.14 gone.. finally go public car park place $1.50 coupons.. -_- i spent alot just on driving and parking.. people.. do drive your car after 8pm.. you can escape all the unnessary charges.. -_- then waited for the guys.. they do the same things as me as i told them meet in bugis junction.. i learned my lesson.. in the end we start eating at 9pm plus.. -_- after steamboat i was very full and home sweet home..
i realize i have been eating buffet for past few weeks.. i shall reduce it.. it's fatterning..
sma day.. finally.. 1 of the 3 caterers was confirm.. phew.. as the date was near.. i'm afraid no food to eat on that day.. hahaz.. 2 more 2 go.. will be confirm tomorrow.. another to be worry was lucky draws and choc fondue.. gonna go pasir panjang do survey see which stalls sell their fruits cheaper..

SMA day

SMA day finally over.. but it's not over for me as i have to do accounting for that.. overall SMA day was going fine.. not much big problem.. but there are some minor ones.. thanks to every helpers and committees that had contributed the event.. 3 cheers to SMAC hip hip hooray..

smiles moon.

wasai,lasting be 18 years old,frist time see the smiles moon.
so specialy.
* V *

no nice.

i see you eat the cake feeling like super no nice.true.
eat finish this.hahahahaha.after change fatty back.

My first love

when i'm older.
and my little girl asks me who my first love was don't want to have to pull out the old photo album.
i want to be able to point across the room and say.SHE IS SITTING RIGHT OVER THERE.

pasar maam t0day

t0day g0 pasar ma1am~buy 1e s0mething~aha,a1ready use RM 70 ab0ve~w0w~

love

The subject of love has inspired poets, writers, those lucky in love as well as who have been passed over by Cupid, to comment on in memorable quotations. Wise quotes, funny quotes, bitter quotes, profound quotes, silly quotes: it seems as if everyone has something to say on the the subject -- and I've gathered their best love quotes for you.
When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.

okie la.

aha.so happiness today.sour change back to shuang finally.ya la.i really can do your normal friend with you la.wataver lo.i trust myself,i can do this really.
spm is coming lo.hope can get a gud result.chienese can get A or B la.don get a C. i can very happy liao.aha.

.

taday you in pasar malam have seeing me,also din have smile and me.i already painful heart.
whatever spm is coming.i wanted do the best.hope my chinese can gat A1.
hope can get gud result.all get a A1.

pain

it is my to have not say son how you getting on.I now all very conscientious is studying.i this it is best to try to best.didn't think of other affairs.what i crossed now is good.but miss your laughter and smiling expression.the point is said feeling doesn't going out.pain,grieved,disappointment.and more.

.

hope you and him can happiness,i get out inyour life from now start.
likeness this just may?

wait.

you promised me to say if you were to be thoroughgoing to get a hurt,forget him and is trying to make contact with me.
please,don't cheat me oh.if have the opportunity,i can wait the day coming.
it is fool not to say me.i am conscientious,don't is joking.

love letter.

Love can be expressed in a myriad of different methods, but the most timeless and most treasured will always remain the classic love letter. In a recent project here at Lovingyou.com we accepted entries for love letters from our users to reflect the current state of romance through the written word. The result is a collection of over 800 user-submitted love letters reflecting the entire range of romantic emotion! Use these letters as a starting base for your next romantic moment, or just be inspired or reflect on the romantic nature of other couples. Either way, we're sure you'll treasure these words as much as the person to whom they are written.
Although sometimes I question things, deep inside I know that you are the only one for me. When I'm not with you, you are the only one I'm thinking of. Everything about you tells me that we can be together forever. Only you can make me feel like time STOPS when I'm with you. Only you can make things better when it feels like the end. Only you can be the one to smooth my fears away. For this I'm grateful and I hope you never leave. I love you.
LOVE ALWAYS.

gets out

if you liked her pls don't to would be hurt to her agn.if not the love GETS OUT immediately at once now.thx.
i didn't make a phone call to you yesterday.pls word doesn't speak carelessly.will harm to me.
will harm us and quarrel.
so get out.eat the dung.

funny

she computer is many funny pic take herself.
so i can copy and paste.hahahahahaha...................

thank you

thank the key circled.

i love this very much.

The Secret

So many questions running through my head,I don't know what to do, cause nothing was said.I tried to lock away everything I felt for you,But you broke down the wall, cuz you always knew.I want to be with you, now and forever,Cuz I know my heart you will never sever.You make me feel like nobody else could,Because in your arms I always feel good.You bring out a part of me I always tried to hide,I can always count on you, with you I can confide.I love feeling the way I do, Is this wrong?I feel for you again with the words of a song.I thought I left my feelings in the past,But I can't help it, there coming back fast.
Do you want to know a secret a secret never told, would you listen to it and in your heart forever hold, will you treasure it by day and night and for all your lifetime to and if your asked about it will you tell the secret true? For the secret is I love you and with all my heart I give, the dreams we both shall cherish for as long as we will live and when I’m there beside you and hold you close to me, then you wont need to know a secret, for together we will be.

love.

i know i don't have the prettiest face for you to look at,or the skinniest waist for you to hold , but i promise i do have the biggest heart to love you with.
when i tell you i love you,i don't say it out of habit.or to make conversation.i say it to remind you that you're a BEST thing that ever happened to me.LOVE.
the greatest challenge in life is to find someone ,who know all your flaws,differences and mistake and yet still sees the best in you.

i am not perfect.

im not perfect.i'll annoy you,piss you off,say stupid stuff,and thentake it back.but put that all aside,you'll never find a girl that cares and love youmore than me.
for the first timei see it in your eyes for the first timeit hurtsdeep insidel wish that could turn back time.but there's no going back no way to deny.
it feelslike loosingit all,i'm trying so hard to be strong.
to find a way to survive.
find a way to let you go now.
tell mehow to live my life alone.
i cant completly let go of you,let go of us.all i say is I LOVE YOU.i know you dont want to hear it.but it makes no sense to pretend i dont.i miss you with all of me.things get easier.but will never with you ill cry less.but the pain will still be there.the love we shared and gave to eachother.will always remain in my heart forever.

..

ah fcuk i am sick again. don't know why andi didn't went for work for 3days(plus tmr)cause i caught a cold , and this time high feverand i bomb bernard . look likes this time he isangry, sorry bro this time round no pua stunsi am really sick with MC ! now is 41 degrees~i went to see your blog and i suddenly also agreewith what you wrote. mayb we are 2 differentpeople in 2 different world. huiqing told medistance does matters but what i can say isit does not. cause i really like you. alrighttime to sleep

exams! today and tmr will be having last papers.studying m8 now , so many things to study.just don't think about anything but STUDY!lol. yesterday , i ask that question to her again anddon't seems so well. i am afraid soon we will drift offfurther.

why

you asked how i to do give me a opportunity?my heart is more painful than whoever is cruel.you can know?

sorry

CHILDLY:I'm sorry.i am wrong.
i did not mean to scold you.
really.sorry sorry.I AM WORST BASTARD.

my felling is sour

my felling is very sour now,seeing your photograph i am heart-broken.you may just be for him and hurt yourself.JUST MAY?
see you in pasar malam,you pretend not to see i seemed.it seems that stranger.
felling so sour.you can know?

...

if you re alone and you need a friend,someone to make you forget your problems.Just come along baby take my hand,i need a lover tonight,this is what i want to doleys have some fun.one on one just me and you.i want you in my room.lets spend the night together.from now until forever everybody get on down.vengaboys are back in town this is what i wanna do lets have some fun one on one just me and you.

also wait you now

i need your love,you to understand but. take care broken become a slice,i also can still wait .Saw your eye socket enduring tears and light is flashings,The heart is very painful.Don’t thinks of them see you tore again, You weep I am more grieved than everyone.Do that before returning you.Smile everyday, because I like.

no study today

No go to school,Because the school lesson had been not yet finished.
so i must do it well first.


want to see her very much oh.
but can not.
she ady said that she want to miss time.
it is annoyed to have to don't need her first Ka.

haiz

dun have one people can snatch and walk you in my life.
Begin to like from childhood your i still is liking you now.
how you cant common sense starts to burn with me?
how can not ?



FAT lik before ady.