Heartcrash

i hate how much I still misses us. After what happened today, everything came back like a painful ride to somewhere between heaven and hell. I have always thought all I needed really, was just one more. But I was wrong. I was not aware of the strong impact you have on me still and how easily you bring me back to miserable. God must been listening when I was confidently telling di that bruises and scars may fade all they want but the pain will always remain. And thats how I want it to be, cause somehow, painful as it is, it keeps it alive and god knows, sometimes I need pain to make me feel real. I was asking for it, then.

It sucks everytime when it comes to you, its something near suicidal.